I really knew nothing about diabetes until about a month ago. I was 24 weeks pregnant and it caused me to lose my sweet baby boy. We didn't know what was going on, but Husband decided that he needed to take me to the ER. I was in an out of sleep most of the time so I don't remember a lot of what happened the first little while but I had a blood glucose level of almost 1200. A normal person has a blood glucose level of between 70-120, so I was dangerously high. I went in on Saturday, had baby boy early Sunday morning, and was discharged Tuesday evening. By then, my whole world had changed.
"What do you mean I have to take a shot every time I eat?"
This was a bit shocking to me, but I have kind of just accepted it and figure there is not much I can do about it. It has been getting easier each day but I have a feeling that it is going to get a lot harder. I am so thankful and grateful for modern medicine. I now cannot live without insulin, but boy are the supplies expensive! I am absolutely terrified for the day I don't have health insurance. (I currently have it, husband doesn't, but what happens if for some reason I no longer have it??) Scares me to death!
I miss my boy every single day. I am doing a lot better now, time does heal, but there are little triggers that set me off. I think Husband is having a really hard time still, but I don't know how to help him. Hopefully time will help him, also. He visited baby's grave today. I hope that can help him heal some even as painful as it is. He said that there were several flowers by his grave. I have no idea who brought them, but I am touched that others have visited him.
The only blogs about type 1 diabetics I have been able to find have had it for years. I wanted to find someone who has only had it for several months to a year that I can relate with, but nothing so far. I think I am rare in getting type 1 at age 24; I have read that most people that get type 1 are children.
So here I am.. new to blogging.. new to diabetes...
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