Pregnant again!

I'm pregnant again! I am so excited! and... scared, nervous, worried, happy, and about a million other things. I had NO idea how much more labor intensive being pregnant would be having type 1 diabetes. I have to go to the doctor every 2-3 weeks instead of once a month and have to send my doctor my sugars every week. I am very high risk and have a doctor more prepared for my needs. They told me that during my 3rd trimester I would have to go in twice a week for stress tests. I'm not looking forward to that. I work full-time and their appointment times are not very flexible; luckily I think my boss will be good to work with me. So far I think my sugars have been pretty good. I have had a couple of highs, but nothing above 190. I am really nervous for when I get to the point in my pregnancy when I will have to start to adjust my insulin ratio. I am pretty comfortable with what I am at now, but my doctors told me that I will become more insulin resistant and will need to use more and more. I haven't been too sick, just a little bit. I don't really feel that great most of the time but I am able to function fine. This pregnancy has been pretty similar to my first one so far. I am really scared that something is going to go wrong again or that my increased risks for my baby developing problems will occur though. I sure hope we can have a happy, healthy, normal baby without any mental or physical disabilities. My husband has been so wonderful, but worries too much, which I feel bad about.

With the holidays coming up, I feel really awful that I don't have my little boy here to celebrate with us. I sure hope he is helping his new sibling along this time. My aunt also passed away during the summer and it will be hard without her here with us, too. Hope, prayers, and love keep me going.